Summary of Tape No 565

19 June 1993

"Gifting Yourself"

This session focused on developing a practical, immediately accessible way to deal with difficulties without requiring preparation, struggle, or external seeking. Bartholomew acknowledged that while traditional approaches like mantras, prayer, and structured spiritual practices are valuable, they often require initial preparation time before becoming spontaneous tools for challenging moments. The teaching aimed to provide something simpler - a way of being present that is so clearly compassionate, open, and uplifting that it can be accessed almost instantly under any circumstances.

The core instruction involved learning to "lift off" from limiting circumstances through visualization and inner expansion, using the metaphor of an airplane breaking through clouds into clear sky. Bartholomew encouraged students to practice this technique repeatedly during mundane irritations and feelings of being hemmed in, rather than using the mind's typical escape strategies of fantasizing about future relief or dwelling on past experiences. The practice involves allowing the present moment to expand rather than trying to get out of it, recognizing the natural elasticity of human consciousness that can simultaneously experience both compactness and vastness.

A significant portion of the session addressed the need for students to acknowledge and celebrate their own magnificence rather than dwelling on perceived failures and inadequacies. Bartholomew revealed that the internal mantras most people run are predominantly negative, focusing on what went wrong rather than celebrating what was accomplished. He challenged the common spiritual misconception that knowing oneself means primarily examining one's shadow or faults, advocating instead for taking in "all the data" - including one's beauty, wisdom, courage, and countless daily victories.

The teaching emphasized that people are frightened not primarily of external events but of themselves - carrying deep sorrow about past mistakes and failures to act appropriately. This self-condemnation creates an internal environment of incompleteness and inadequacy that prevents recognition of one's true magnificence. Bartholomew stressed that arrogance is actually a projection covering tremendous fear and tenderness, and that in his experience, he had never encountered a truly arrogant human being, only those skilled at projecting that image to protect their vulnerable core.

The practical prescription involved developing a daily practice of "gifting yourself" with the loving kindness, mercy and appreciation that people typically seek from the external world. This means flooding oneself with messages of beauty, adequacy, and worth, particularly toward the physical body which is subjected to impossibly rigid cultural standards. Bartholomew explained that true beauty is "an inside job" that emerges when people stop focusing on external validation and begin generating their own sense of magnificence.

The session addressed the common therapeutic belief that if one doesn't receive certain emotional gifts from parents, they can never be obtained. Bartholomew strongly disputed this, calling it the "original lie" to believe that parents are the source of what is needed. He explained that becoming an adult means taking responsibility for providing oneself with all the deep experiences that are yearned for, rather than expecting the external world to deliver them. This self-gifting then creates the capacity to give genuinely to others, whether they can receive it or not.

Bartholomew concluded by explaining that the macrocosm and microcosm are identical - whatever people visualize as possible in the vast external universe is already present and accessible within their own intimate being. The homework assignment for "the rest of your life" involved identifying what is being sought from the external world and learning to provide those very experiences internally. As this practice develop, people will break out of limitations, move into creative living even within mundane circumstances, and discover the parts of themselves they were waiting for others to validate, ultimately knowing their own "magnificent, amazing wonder" with deep intimacy.