Summary of Tape No 595

29 January 1995

"Be a Light to Yourself"

This intensive session represented Bartholomew's challenge to his long-term students to make the final conceptual leap in understanding their true nature. He began by acknowledging that after years of teaching, he expected only a few dedicated listeners to remain as the message had reached its most demanding and transformative point.

The central teaching revolved around a radical shift in self-identification. Bartholomew explained that spiritual seekers have been mistakenly identifying themselves as the "subject" of their experience - the one who observes, thinks, and acts. He challenged this fundamental assumption by declaring that the individual self is actually an "object" - not the observer, but something being observed by a much vaster awareness. This consciousness that animates and gives life to the body-mind mechanism is the true Self, the actual subject of all experience.

Bartholomew addressed the persistent belief that enlightenment can be achieved through reading, thinking, and intellectual understanding. He used humor and direct confrontation to expose how this mental approach, while valuable for practical matters, becomes an obstacle when applied to spiritual realization. The mind's constant activity creates a barrier to recognizing what is already present - the blissful awareness that is the seekers' true nature.

The session included a powerful critique of spiritual seeking itself. Bartholomew explained that the very act of seeking implies that what is sought is absent, distant, or requires special conditions to attain. This creates a fundamental contradiction since what is being sought - one's true nature - cannot actually be absent. He drew parallels to Buddha's eventual abandonment of extreme practices, recognizing that the separate self trying to achieve enlightenment is itself the obstacle.

A significant portion of the session addressed the practical experience of being an "object" in relationship to others, noting that people often complain about being treated as objects while failing to recognize that they view others the same way. The solution is not to become better subjects, but to discover the deeper Subject - the awareness that gives rise to all apparent subjects and objects.

The teaching concluded with discussion of the current planetary energies, suggesting that the timing is particularly favorable for this recognition. Bartholomew described these as times of both difficulty and opportunity, where the same forces creating global challenges also provide unprecedented support for spiritual awakening. He emphasized that this recognition doesn't require years of practice - it's a matter of stopping the mental activity that obscures what is always present and allowing the natural bliss of being to reveal itself.